Everything Feels Lighter Staring At The Disco Balls consists of many blue colored reflective surfaces that take place in the Fullerton Arboretum Rose Garden Gazebo. I was inspired by an advertisement for “Major Depressive Disorder” that had an image of a dancing disco ball character. I thought the image was so funny, and interestingly relatable that I kept thinking about it. The blue reflective surfaces I have brought to the gazebo represents my looming feelings constantly over and around me. In addition, the imagery of the blue spheres, or as I would like to say blue balls are an important part of this installation. “Blue balls” is a slang term that refers to a painful feeling in the testicles due to sexual arousal without ejaculation or relief. For me, however, blue balls refers to my uncomfortable state and need for emotional release. I have always been drawn to ball-like or orb shapes as they invoke nostalgia in me and remind me of my childhood. Having said that, a common motif in my works deals with talking about my mental health and the effects of it. Despite it all, I try to make peace with it all and relax, like sitting in and enjoying the rose garden gazebo.